I LOVE MY LIFE! its...

I LOVE MY LIFE! its so wonderful, really, all the time. even when things could be considered suckish, i really do still love my life and i can only see awesome things coming my way, which is quite a wonderful state of mind to be in constantly. I really think im just a happy soul, a peaceful soul, even when my home life gets ridiculously bad im amazing at balancing my slight sadness, which ends quickly, with my deep happiness. More than anything, im so optimistic, god im such a fucking idealist. blindly optimistic. I'm so fucking excited about my life too, all of the close friendships ill have, all of the crazy fun and new things to try, kids, family, loveee, but especially being with that one guy my best friend/lover:), cant fucking wait for all of that. and its not just sometimes that im like this, all happy and optimistic, but all of the fucking time i suppose its truly who i am. even greater, i have somehow become a very peaceful soul, so nice balancing all aspects of life to be in complete inner peace. 

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music. lord so much to say...

music...music...i dnt know how to start, so this is going to be short and sweet and just a composition of all of my favorites......

Basically, I love reggae, alternative hip hop, folk, classic rock, most world music, and acoustic music including a ton of solo acoustic artisits. I very much so like baja/cali rock, too. 
With the first 3 listed, my favorites, i dont know where to begin, but i do know that i will soon have an entire blog dedicated to reggae. hip hop is fucking amazing...but its the underground stuff that blows my mind. then folk comes next probably and it just really connects with you, good clean genuine stuff.
classic rock is just so very wonderful. when i think of the good stuff, i think of the 60s and 70s, and how much i wish i could build a time machine and just live through those unfuckingbelievable years, which is another blog to come. and of course theres world music, which my ranges from the amazing india/balliwood music to irish stuff to awesome native american spirit stuff. and then accoustic music, which also falls into the folk catagorey, but i have to separte it because it covers so many different types, from jack johsons distinct stuff to dave matthews then at the end of the spectrum- to the greats, the solo acoustic artists like leo kottke and tommey emanuel and kaki king.
i like that california rock too, from sublime to current swell to the expendables, just sounds so good.
I clearly just have a thing for good vibes, the positive stuff that makes you feel good and the stuff that you want to dance to and skank to!

my fave artists:

richie havens, slightly stoopid, donovan, bob, atmosphere, ziggy marley, current swell, CSNY!, damien marley, 

sweatshop union, matisyahu, burningspear, james taylor, greatful dead, zepplin, moe. phish, kalai, jedi mind tricks, jurassic 5, tim hardin,ub40,  joni mitchell, soldiers of jah army, cat stevens, sweetwater, iron &wine, moody blues, leo kottke, andy mckee, xavier rudd, citizen cope, great big sea, john denver, the mountain goats, the expendables, phil ochs, john butler trio, burning sky, 


the avalanches,  cat stevens, , alexi murdoch, john denver, jack johnson, seabear, andy mckee, sugar minott, michael franti, ub40, steve miller band, keller williams, cas haley, tommy emmanuel, tunng, xavier rudd, tea lead green, pete francis,  the beautiful girls, bag of toys, g love, talking heads, brett dennen, john butler trio,  nick drake,

midnite ,s,, tosh, marvin gaye, , pepper, dave mattehws band, 311, cant hang, , tommy emmanuel, cream, ballyhoo, bowie,dispatch, cypress hill, groundation, allman bros,rebelution, steel pulse, stone senses, marlon asher, natural vibrations, third world, wolfmother, phish, antoine dufour, moe., collie buddz, state radio

 xavier rudd, diego roots, demarco,  880 south, ech movement, loudon wainwright III, dialated peoples


basically my fave songs for some reason:

time of your song, matisyahu

lets live for today, grass roots

dela, jonney klegg

something in the way she moves, james taylor

rocky mountain high, john denver'

get fly  & my songs, atmosphere


theres just something about:

richie havens, donovan, bob, atmosphere, ziggy marley, crosbey, stills, nash, and young, damien marley, james taylor, and a few others



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love, life marraige, other shit

so, today some friends and i started talking about having kids and a person to be with all our lives...and it wasnt any girls it was me and all of the guys once again at the lake, like everyday, of course we were toking so ha that explains it...but it really got me thinking about the topic, even more so than usual-since i think about it pretty abnormally i think since 7th grade. Anyway, clearly, if you know me well, you know that that is the thing of most value to me in life, moreso than the kids, or money, or work, anything...its all sort of about and riding on me and that other person. I dont want to call it husband becuase thats such a very narrow term, which doesnt indicate that your best friends or that you adore eachother or anything of any substance, sadly becuase by far the majority of marrigaes are not so good, which i will segway into later. Its deeper and of more value and substance when theyre not just your legal husband but when also your fucking world becuase hes that one static person who you are closest to, who each devoted to one another (not dependent but devoted-ill have to write a whole nother thing on this topic), and furthur more, looking at your life journey, its you and him, walking through life together as constants for decades and decades, as children come and go, jobs, homes, friends(though i know we gots to have the lifelong friendships) and everyother form of life and resource within it. 

ideally, the only constant, everything. most fuck it up when the women puts the kids before the husband which is so very wrong. her children, shell even admitt, becomes her "life" which is already a fucked up thing becuase they will leave her and find their own paths and journeys separate from her own and when they leave shell become depressed and cling becuase they were her life. but its even more fucked becuase shes neglacting the number one, most important person, constant, in her life. all but one, i think, marriange i have seen has this probelem within it. the only people, im pretty sure, who i have seen who were actually very much in love, in a fun,  happy, lighthearted way is my aunt and uncle. I have spent so much time with them and the way they are always laughing and joking around is so refreshing becuase ive never seen anything like it, even after theyve been married so long. the biggest thing though is the way they look at one another...its changed the way i look at good relationships, they look at eachother with complete adoration. thats what i want all of my life. and the whole journey thing is signifigant because when you realize that its really the two of you going through it all together, no one else matters. 
i always think of this weird dream i had when i was with that person, who ever it might be and we were at this snobby dinner party, god knows it was just a dream sinse id never go to one of those not that wed ever have the money to be consided on of them:), but he says something retatred and goofy that makes all of the other people look at him with discust but i am just looking at him with those adoring eyes because it doesnt matter what they think,  and i love everything about him and who he is no matter, i can never feel embarresed or anthing negative by him. our...journey, and i dont care how cheesey i sound either.
i was surprised how some of the guys i was with today are starting to really grow up. before i remember them just thinking about only sex and money, but suddenly, a few, (granted they are all in their 20s) really started to open up about how their realizing how theyre sick of the games already and want that sweet, loving constant, but most importantly his best friend, which is my top pick too:). really, i dont even want to imagine going through life alone, which you can be in a marraige and still be very much alone. at one point i have to belive that all of those boys who go through life always on the hunt and never satisfied must realize the lack of real substance and depth within life when you are alone in that way, without your person whos just your world. really, isnt all we really want, true happiness coming from contentment, just to be satisfied?
ill write another on being content and satisfied because it is so importnat and it makes me think of my dad sadly, or anyone who is consttantly searching for, money, fame, power, going up in the corporate world, who is never satisfied and content and theirfore will never truly be happy, seeing happoness in a skewed light, not real happiness. its that simple, good, satisfied life that is so very much what i want.
I feel like i have so very much more to say on love and marriage and life, which i will describe furthur eventually but right nowthe guys and i are gunna go to the skate park for the comp which i will be writing all about logans victory over will.ahahah...alright i feel so drunk right now and ive had very little substances, yet alright i must go, which id like to have on the recore, written here as proof that right now tyler is sexually harassing me...which sucks beacause if i want to preess chrges and use this as partial evidentce, the police and whoever the fuck else would have to read my drunken thoughts on love and life.

well ill leave you another thing we ttalked about, kids names, her are my favorites and have been for forever, which i am very excited to name my future kids, all my little boys and maybe a girl...fuck please i dont want more than one girl i hate that i have no control over my kids gender, though by that time the whole fucked up changing your unborn childs DNA thing might be more open to the general public...
boys: sage, asher, forrest, sydney, joshua, shiloh(the littlest one maybe:))
girls: sage(yeah i cant decide if i want to name my son or daughter this name ha), kylie :) or maybe chloe or something
wow i really do feel drunk and i proablly sound it too. awesome.

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beer...and corporate america

so...this is my first post...I'm actually laughing because I'm watching beerfest right now, way funny movie, actually its definately my favorite comedy plus one of my overall favorite movies. yeah i actually had like a month long stint where i watched it practically every night in bed and then played it some in the morning when getting ready, so i basically have it almost memorized. yep, for me its one of those odd movies that i cant seem to get tired of, i still love watching it all of the time, there are only like 4 movies that i can do that with. and I must say it has only increased my already very strong love of beer. mmm...beer is good, golden delicious beer. I think I could be a beer conoseuir eventually, like go around the country to all of the small, homegrown beer companies that produce quality goods, as opposed to those popular corporate companies that mass produce okay to shitty beer...plus beer tasters are way cooler than those stuck up wine sniffers. And beer is a real part of our culture, good old American culture...beer, apple pie, football, and consumerism. yeeeaah, so the only thing i like in that list is the beer:). so, many of you are probably wondering what my favorate beer is...it's keystone...ha only kidding. I swear I'm not drunk right now. Anyway, I love how my first blog is one discussing beer, with anti-corporate america undertones. sweet, I'm so liberal:). Anyway, I have started this blog thing with my skank friend who tells me its the shit and a way we could creatively keep up with eachother when we move super far away from one another. well, we'll see how it goes I here its nice to be able to think on paper, and reflect, plan...buuuttt, me and her must get going right now to so we can super sauced at my bestie friend will's party...and, well man, down a shitload of...BEER!


okayy...favorite current beerfest quote. the team are sipping the new brew for the first time:
Landfill: "it's magical"
Fink: "it's laughing at me"
Barry: "I wish i could brush my teeth with it"
Landfill: "i wanna put my dick in it"
Fink: "I want it to put its dick in me"
Barry: "I wish it were winter and we could make it into ice blocks and skate on it. and then melt it in the springtime and drink it"

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